If anyone does crossfit, you know your FRAN time is what “defines” you. I did it today for the first time, and my first five thrusters I felt like I was going to die. Needless to say, I had a bs workout, and have been bumming about it ever since. I seriously feel like I’ve let myself down and I want to attempt it again. The next session (and only session with open availability is at 1) which definitely doesn’t give me enough recovery time between when I did it this morning, but, I don’t feel like I gave 110%. I ended with a time of 7:20, but I don’t feel as though it should of been that low (which truthfully, 7:20 isn’t low at all) - I was expecting my time to be about 12-15 minutes for some reason. I just feel like my form might not of been 100% or something which is why my time, for my FIRST attempt is so low. As my boyfriend says, “you just have very high expectations for yourself. The fact that you’re even going to crossfit and ATTEMPTING it is amazing”, and yes I agree, but I want to be better. I’m having that complex where I just want results now, and I know that’s bs, but I’m bumming major today.
FML and the expectations I put on myself because of my history with health. Sometimes I can’t live up to my own expectations and it’s nothing but bs.